I can’t shake the blahs. I wish I was at home watching morning TV, which as anyone can tell you is just about the best TV in the world when you want your brain to stay in semi-shutdown mode.

The students aren’t cute today, just a bit annoying. I suppose I could be described that way too.

for someone like me, with zero musical skills beyond the ones that float around in my head, Rock Band is the perfect solution. I have a feeling I won't be getting much sleep for awhile. Is it lame that a game is keeping me up all night?

Singing in Japanglisheanic

Where’s the partly sunny I was expecting today? It’s mostly crappy out actually.

The class right next to me is supposed to start singing Karaoke for the last part of their class and I’m so excited I’m about 2 seconds away from banging on the window and telling them to get started already.

I want to receive asian gifts in cute postal boxes.

Going to the library is a fairly retro thing to do. Physically searching for what you want to read and such. There’s something really interesting about the idea of going to a public place and then immersing yourself into such a solitary experience.

I can’t comprehend the idea of reading a book online. Part of the whole reading experience is the weight, feel, texture and smell of the book that you’re holding. One of my favourite things is cracking open a brand new book that I’ve been looking forward to; it’s especially nice when it’s also put together well and is a pleasure to even just pick up. I mean don’t you just love being the first person to open a new book? I just can’t believe that reading online could ever take over. Online reading should be confined to news items, some research, and nonsense like this. I guess not that many people like reading anymore, there are too many easier entertainment options.

I’d like to actually go sit in the library and read, but our library is full of people who smell of old alcohol and cigarettes, wander about muttering to themselves about semi-disturbing things and occasionally have moderately vulgar outbursts. Also, the bathrooms are beyond E Coli.

insomnia day 10 million and 1.

Instead of moving backwards... try moving on. It might actually refresh your life and give you some peace for a change.

I don't know why, but lately I've been on this wig buying kick. Don't I look like your mom now?

ugh I feel like the death... I stayed out too late the past two nights and so I've effectively written off the rest of my weekend for recovery. Looks like it's Pizza and TV for me tonight.

Oh you cute students trying to say salt shaker and soap in the class next to me. Listening to them makes me feel happy today.

Did you know dryer sheets take the static out of your hair and make it smell good too? I feel so clever for coming up with this although now that I think about it, I imagine some women’s magazine put this one out there as a tip of the month or something ages ago… so I guess it’s not such a score after all.

I never thought I’d say this, but I’m really looking forward to the smell of thawing mud and dog poop. That will mean that spring is here.

Just realized... I can't stand listening to someone eating an apple.

so today I’m wearing this hideous sweater… hideous because it catches every bit of cat hair and fuzz from around my house and I end up picking at myself like a scabby child all day long. It makes me feel like that mother who’s given up on being a real person and just exists to serve everyone around her until they take her on Oprah for a makeover (or maybe it’s Montel, I don’t know who’s doing the makeover thing these days). It’s worse because of course at work there are all these fashionable and stylish asian girls and then me wearing the sweater that they probably wouldn’t even consider good enough to wipe their floors with. Yay!

I’m eating almonds. I don’t know why, they’re choking food, and I have a problem with choking food. Anything I consider choking food must be chewed repeatedly until it becomes a complete food milkshake. Is that a sign of some sort of OCD problem?

I feel like I have one stuck in my throat right now.

Circumstances are that I now have the opportunity to spend a lot of time with myself, and surprisingly, it’s been very good for me I think. I kind of forgot over the past few years how to just be alone and appreciate the time for what it is… you know, not feel the need to be doing something or to have someone’s company. I’ve started to cook proper meals for myself again and I’ve been able to keep the junk food out of the house. I’ve even started a total house cleaning regimen! I feel absolutely no need or desire for a relationship; I’m looking forward to being a little selfish with my time and energies. It's kind of cool to not have to worry about what someone else wants, needs, thinks, says etc.

Sometimes, it takes a long time to see what has to be done I think, or maybe it’s a fear of action; sometimes you keep hoping that something might change, even though you know that it won’t. Sometimes I guess you just become used to the feelings… even the negative ones. The gift at the end is that sometimes you feel differently about it than you thought you would.

Look I finally got bored

and took a new pic.