whatever, I'm sick of thinking about how my life could be better, I doubt I'm the only person who imagines some kind of special movie type life, not the hollywood type life but the kind where you are all artistic and roaming the streets with your notebooks and cameras and having special coffee drinks in obscure places with interesting people and drinking liquors nobody has heard of while eating fabulous meals in cheap but authentic restaurants and of course never get tired or miserable.

So reality is getting drunk with the same friends and making the same jokes while eating crappy american fast food and feeling the same shitty way because the outcome is always the same and of course life isn't exactly bad, it's just not that special one....and people say make your own life, it's that "The Secret" bullshit or something and yeah... stuff that if I daydream about pink ponies and marshmallow pillowfights will I get them?

No!