still working some things out in my head, feeling betrayed... I have a tendency to blame myself for things that are not entirely my fault or in some cases not my fault at all. I think in certain situations you should be able to 100% expect loyalty and consideration from people and when you find out that you don`t have that, it can be a terribly hurtful blow.

I`ve gone through being angry and sad and I`m not sure what to do with all this. Let`s just say someone thinks they have the upper hand and are no doubt going to do whatever they can to cause trouble. They think the situation is funny and I`m not sure how that makes them a very good friend to the other person involved but what do I know, maybe that`s how you really show that you want someone to be happy. I just really hope the other person puts a stop to it.

To put it plainly, my boyfriend's ex-girlfriend is a meddling bitch and extremely uncool. Sometimes she calls him and leaves 2-4 minute long phone messages 2-4 times per day, and feels perfectly free to badmouth me, someone she has never laid eyes on...can we say unstable? Fuck, you'd think we were 15 years old, and why doesn't this grown woman have her own man and life and stay out of mine anyway? They broke up oh... it must be around 2 years ago. I think it's fucking WEIRD at this age and stage of life. Then again, based on what she has said it would appear that she made up a boyfriend last year to try to taunt him with... again, unstable much? Thank god she doesn't live nearby although I know she keeps trying to plan visits so I anticipate that will be my next big issue someday soon...unless she manages to convince him to lie to me to see her.

I don't get it. Yes, I know it's my boyfriend's job to put a stop to it blah blah blah... but still, any specific reason why women are such cunts?

I’m on a bit of a tear today, so I decided to post after all.I just feel super annoyed and it’s the culmination of many things, but I’ll focus on just one for now.

You know what I can’t stand? The fucking self-righteous down the nose bullshit of the organic/naturals crew. Guess what? YOU are NOT always right. YOU do NOT always make the right choice. And plants are NOT a miracle cure for EVERY LITTLE THING much as we’d all like them to be. Spending $6.00 on a loaf of bread doesn’t make you healthier than me, it makes you more gullible (or maybe richer). Whatever. Get over yourselves.

I should probably preface this by saying that 9/10 times I will buy organic. I know that ultimately it probably doesn’t make a huge difference, but I like the idea of not eating chemically treated food (although I suspect I may be getting lied to at times). At the same time, I love white bread. I like potato chips. I DRINK NON-ORGANIC BEER FOR GOD’S SAKE!!! I’m a walking contradiction? NO, not really. At least I don’t judge others for the choices they make. At least I don’t walk around pretending that vitamin c and basil etc. will fix everything. I speak from experience having dealt with brain splitting, stay in bed for 3 day level migraines that NO herbal cure has helped (and I have tried EVERYTHING). Tylenol 3? HEADACHE GONE. So fuck off if you don’t like it, it’s not your damn head.

Fuck, I suppose there is so little in the world to make you feel important that now we have to feel important by pretending that what we eat makes us somehow socially superior. Well fuck you and the patchouli stink that trailed in behind you, I don’t give a shit and if I want to eat a twinkie (and sometimes I do!) I will. Hey, half you fucking fruity Orgosapiens (did I just make that up? Should I sell that term to them?) stuff chemical drugs into your stupid bodies when you go to your little barefoot dancey prance parties so shove your hypocrisy up your organically cleansed arses while you drink orange juice and pop vitamins to cut the comedown.

Yep, angry me is Baaaack.

taking a break from this for the weekend. I'm mentally exhausted and possibly on the verge of a nervous breakdown. OK I won't go that far because I would never let that happen, but let's just say my brain is punched for now and leave it at that.

someone in here smells like Good & Plentys.

someone arrived at this blog yesterday after doing a search for "mustard porn". Mustard porn? REALLY?

OK mystery solved. Painting in restaurant was some really PISS POOR version of this and they mystery blobs in the bottom right hand side really ARE people... but HA those are STARS in the sky? I totally thought it was fireworks, really confused me, a little bright aren't they?

I'm still not hot on this painting.

And this is my new bird design. It's available on a variety of things too...

Click here if you're curious!

this is my rainbow shoe design. You can see different views here.

needed some greasy grub last night, popped over to pub, fries and curry and these tortilla wrap things, pretty good for garbage food oh and a pitcher of Keith’s rounded out the good eating portion of the evening. Annoying dart players all over the place though, seriously whoever decided putting the dart board area directly in the way of the door to the patio wasn’t thinking very hard.



This painting was on the wall at the Mediterranean place we ate at on Friday… I think somebody must have changed their mind on the subject matter. Don’t know how well you can see this but final painting was of water with lights around it (what? I have no idea actually what was going on around the water… fireworks I think, not too sure)…



yet at the bottom of this painting you can see what appears to be two people, who have been turned into part of the water, not very successfully. Quality artwork. Oh, and the ceiling leaked on us at this place.

ok, that’s all I’ve got for ya right now.

HA Losers, I just re-saved the old eye glasses post as a draft so now you weirdo freaks can't see it anymore and can just go fucking diddle your dinks elsewhere, they are GLASSES for god's sake...what is the big exciting deal, some of you come back over and over again they aren't even NICE glasses you morons...and I really don't look all that slamming in them either so get over it already.

my life is like a really pathetic Dramedy about a social misfit loser, this morning as I was about to walk out the door I dropped my container of yogurt with pears and it EXPLODED all over the place and all over me and I had almost no time left so I tried to wipe it off my pants quickly had no time to get changed. I bet I start smelling like rotten milk by this afternoon and also I lost my bank card so that is what i get to spend my lunch hour (which is really only 30 minutes) doing, replacing that, fucking awesome. Oh hey, just burned myself with boiling hot tea water and kind of feel like puking. What's next?

I suppose it could be worse, I could sew fucking majorette or majorlame shoulder pads on my leather jacket and go grocery shopping too. I wonder if they are talking about dungeons and dragons or norwegian metal bands or pi or something. If you click on that picture you can get a better view of the glory.

It's 1130 pm I'm lying here next to someone who didn't even say goodnight to me before falling asleep. I can see that sometimes you just have to accept that things will not go back to the way they were and no matter what you do you can't make another person act any differently and so there it is and though I had thought I was good and things were chugging along I think maybe it's time to admit defeat and let him go back to the life that permits Friday phone calls that don't have to be secrets and I don't know what the hell he wants anyway but I'm pretty sire it ain't me. Such is my life. Just once I want to be someone one and only happy true love I wonder if that is a real thing anyway?