Circumstances are that I now have the opportunity to spend a lot of time with myself, and surprisingly, it’s been very good for me I think. I kind of forgot over the past few years how to just be alone and appreciate the time for what it is… you know, not feel the need to be doing something or to have someone’s company. I’ve started to cook proper meals for myself again and I’ve been able to keep the junk food out of the house. I’ve even started a total house cleaning regimen! I feel absolutely no need or desire for a relationship; I’m looking forward to being a little selfish with my time and energies. It's kind of cool to not have to worry about what someone else wants, needs, thinks, says etc.

Sometimes, it takes a long time to see what has to be done I think, or maybe it’s a fear of action; sometimes you keep hoping that something might change, even though you know that it won’t. Sometimes I guess you just become used to the feelings… even the negative ones. The gift at the end is that sometimes you feel differently about it than you thought you would.