I recall being such a needy teenager
I don’t know
I moved a lot
and had no solid ties

I think it infected me
with a parasite
of desperation
a need for attention

mixed up with desire
for solitude so complete
and a stunted sense
of duty to others

im sure its made me
compromise myself all these years
where men are concerned
the attention came

but it also went
I guess they knew somehow
that I was pretty hollow
and falling apart

and broken down relics don’t command respect
or consideration
in fact they almost beg
to be destroyed

like me