It really was a decent weekend, wasn't it? Nice and warm, sunny, what more could you want? Got outside on Saturday, actually managed to avoid the ten million other people with the same idea, I hate that everywhere beautiful around here is full of people when it's nice out; yet another reason I want to go to the country.



I really am an anti-social hermit at heart. I would be exceptionally good at that lifestyle I think.



I guess that's not really something to aspire to is it.

Sometimes I'm painfully insecure...but not about the things you might think.




my essentially non-existent sense of style? Nah, I'm cool with that and I like what I like. Men, well, no, history has shown that you can make a relationship out of almost anything, for awhile anyway. If they wanna run, let 'em run. Don't make a fool of me, that's pretty much my only rule. Loyalty is important. Screw me on that and you can fuck right off. So yeah, I'm not insecure in that department either, I've learned what I will and won't tolerate and even my overwhelming patience can and will have an expiry date if you mess with it.



yeah, I guess my insecurities are more internalized, you know, regarding talents and abilities and confidence in those things and whatnot. I've never really learned how to overcome the nagging doubt about those things. But maybe that's normal? Nah, I think other people (most anyway) pretty much know what they are good at and go from there.

Me? I'm still searching.