Bubbling Just Beneath The Surface

I wish I could explain to you why I feel like contradicting everything you say, why looking at you today made me feel so angry especially when you kept making smug replies to everything I mentioned, why I needed to challenge your belief system even though the words that came out of me were pure bullshit simply because I don't believe in the cause after all, why I thought I might cry just because nothing is wrong at all and I am unfamiliar with that feeling, why I had to come home early or explode and why I'll be coming back a mere 3 hours later because I miss you.