Rude Awakening

I feel like I have a lot to think about all of sudden, about relating to other people and figuring out what you really want in life. Should your ego feel this small after talking to someone who supposedly cares about you? How is it that discussions end up being about something entirely different than they started out as? Do people say what they really think when they are angry or do they blurt out stuff simply in anger? I think it just gives people the courage to say what they really think, and that is what is causing me to do a lot of thinking about things now.

I won't get into details and I probably shouldn't have posted anything at all, but I might not post for a few days because quite frankly, I'm feeling kind of pissed at the world and if not at the world well, at my world anyway, and I don't think I'm going to have anything much to say, and most likely I will just hide out at home and say nothing to anyone. I don't even feel like having the Christmas Party anymore because honestly, people tend to be more effort then they are worth and I'm not feeling up to it. I feel like I'm in a very bad position right now, so I need to do what I need to do to at least ensure that I do not end up screwed over when it all blows up (and it seems like that could really be the outcome).

Oh blah, blah, blah. I'm actually posting crap a girl would post for once. What a bore. Especially since you have no clue what I am going on about and I don't really intend to share as this post was simply for me to yack up my negative feelings. The End.