I Decided

not to be all depressed and loner like and shit, because actually my grandmother was 88 so it's not like she was cut short in the prime of her life or anything. People always think that it is unfeeling to say something like that but it's true, and if I'm being honest, people die and it doesn't really matter at what age because who knows what will become of your life and for some people living to be really old is probably the shits. I guess I'm just feeling a little freaked out because she died while I was on the way up to see her, so I only got to see her dead, and that was just odd and I don't do well with that kind of thing in reality.

I feel like I am super close to some major revelation about something. Unfortunately, I feel like that a lot, and so far, no revelating has transpired. I just checked to see if that was a word, and it's not, but it is now.


Girls, don't ever use Depo Provera. It robs you of your emotions EXCEPT for the one where you feel like a Monster and steals your sex drive and makes you feel old and tired and angsty and you can't do shit about it for months. I imagine by the time the bad effects wear off, you don't have anyone left to have sex with as you have scared them away with your new, bubbly personality and extra poundage on the belly. Oh, and the fact that being touched feels like a major violation. That rocks the most.

I have some writing being published in Hammered Out. You should buy it or something.