Irrationality

I'm pretty familiar with it. I seem to place myself in a lot of scenarios that result in my feeling irrational. I make the same choices repetitively. I know it's something many of us do, but you'd think I'd have gotten the hang of this living crap by now.

I used to be really good at disengaging. I could seriously tune out to the point where I felt like a zombie regardless of what was going on. Later in life, I actively sought to not be this way anymore.

Now I regret it. It was a very useful defense mechanism.