this is what I come up with?

I suppose the problem is I feel completely creatively stifled, for whatever reason. I’m my own worst enemy, absolutely no confidence in anything I do, and having an awareness of it doesn’t make it any easier to overcome. Also, I’ve noticed lately that I have a really strong feeling of wanting to be alone, which kind of sucks.

I never wanted to be this office person. Really, I’ve ended up doing and becoming so many things that I never wanted to, and then I have the nerve to sit back and feel jealous about people who actually took chances to become the person that they really are. I disgust myself sometimes with my cowardice.

Pfft… I’m making myself sick with this pathetic ramble about being pathetic. If I wasn’t so lazy, I’d do something about it. But I AM lazy, clearly, do I just accept that? I guess I already have.

Korean Karaoke…. We have a great spot that serves after hours and lets you smoke inside. They also have the most extensively bizarre song selection I’ve ever seen in a Karaoke place. This keeps me sane, for now.

I have two cats who smell really bad and tear my condo to shreds. I am a slob on a massive scale… like I bet I am worse than most guys.

OK... this weekend, I will DEFINITELY take some pics. I hope I'm not lying.