the thing that rocks the most about having a blog that has lost its favour (meaning, once upon a time a few years ago I had lots of readers but then I stopped writing for a while and when I came back discovered that OH nobody much hangs around to see what comes next) is that you can pretty much write anything and it doesn't matter. I just realized that this morning.

For example, I can tell you the following without caring even a little bit:

When I was living with this one boyfriend (I'd name him, but you don't know him so it doesn't matter, OH OK let's call him Les) I WAS in fact screwing my ex... who in fact was the person I left my husband for... yeah we both lied to his face about it for awhile before that relationship ended and we got back together. He was pretty much my soul-mate, and that status might still stand today even though we aren't together now and haven't been since 2003. He even came to visit me in 2008 and I screwed him then too (although I was single that time).

He happened to be someone I always felt comfortable saying ANYTHING to and I still feel that way although I don't talk to him much these days being as I have a boyfriend right now and want THAT to work out.

I felt badly for the situation with my husband (but really, we were young and the whole situation was based on the idea of marriage etc.) but if I'm honest, I don't feel sorry about the other parts. Anyway, this ex lives on the other side of the country now. Would he be interference if he still lived here? I don't think so. I mean, 7 years later...things are different.

I've probably had at least 5 one-night stands... although all but one were with people I was already friends with. One I don't remember the name of. What a slut! (him, not me of course!)

My last boyfriend was pretty unkind to me at times and really wore down my feelings for him but I continued in the relationship much longer than I should have. I avoided sleeping with him all the time and it was pretty affectionless for a while before I finally ended it. I might in fact be getting karmic payback for that right now... except I don't believe in fucking karma.

Bah... this is boooooring. There's another problem I have I guess... boring. I get bored of what I write here... so why wouldn't you? And I just realized... it doesn't matter how many people read this... I actually don't care. hmm....