I Write Here To Distract Myself From The Real World

Yeah, I think I really do. I'm a worrier, and my response to all that worry (which at least 60% of the time is based on nothing, I know this) is to distract myself from it.

I'm trying to find a couple of part-time jobs because I really don't want to pursue a "career" anymore. I've done the office thing for ages and I hate it. I wonder why people always equate successful living with having the "right" sort of job. I don't want to have to think too hard for anyone else but myself.

I'm feeling bored, but I can't put my finger on it. I know, being bored usually means you are boring and blah blah blah, and I remember the Pet Shop Boys saying that they were never being boring, but apparently as I recall, that was because of the weird party orgies they were having in the video and something about it seemed kind of sad and desperate, not that the Pet Shop Boys are any kind of gauge on how life should be and really, they are pretty irrelevent, although maybe they were on to something and I missed something really important in their message that would help me now.

I'm quitting smoking. Not as a resolution, but because I'm out of money.