Dudes, I just want to be an artist, GOD it's been bubbling in my belly since I can remember. As a child and young teen my favourite hobbies were writing and collage making and drawing (can you believe I used to be good at it?), sometimes I wish I'd never discovered boys, they definitely ruined my life or at least my focus.



Once they have poisoned your blood supply, it's pretty hard to go back, you need a life transfusion, happens to the best of us, yes. I don't hate men, oh no, maybe in fact I like and enjoy them too much, even while they've battered my ego down, let me down, my fault too, I don't place all the blame there.

Sorry for seeming to lay this on half the planet (actually, I don't think it's an even split, I'm pretty sure there are way more men than women now, thanks China, and way to go, good luck with your testosterone society), but really, boys are probably the number one downfall of girls everywhere, fact.



OK I KNOW that I AM RESPONSIBLE for myself as an honest to god living breathing adult, yep I GET it, it's not so easy as just saying it and that's no lie. Yep, the world would be amazing, so amazing even if everything we knew and said and learned on Oprah just happened, just fell into our laps like little apples shaking off a tree, yes I'd like that as much as anyone, for sure.

We'll see where I'm at in a year, let's see where you are at too, ok? Because I am interested and curious about human progression even while at the same time I seek to avoid and remove myself from interactions.

*I didn't want to put a disclaimer on this because it changes what I've written I think but at the same time I don't want anyone to think this is about my current situation at all so here it is, the disclaimer that tells you this is not about my current life or current relationship or anything like that.