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I am such a different person than I was even say, 3 years ago, and I like it. I've shrugged off a lot of my insecurities and I can say that I would never accept from other people the stupidity and nonsense I once would. I wouldn't even get myself into the situation anymore. Things are calm and relaxed and everyone can do their own thing and fortunately doing our own thing doesn't mean screwing each other over or behaving ignorantly, also cool.  I have a sense of freedom and purpose that I can honestly say I haven't had for over 10 years.

Sometimes I feel like I've become more judgmental, but in actuality it's just that I don't have the patience or tolerance for bad/rude/ignorant behaviour. I don't really understand why it's so accepted and hell even appreciated, people acting like selfish goons. It's so ugly. I sometimes wonder what it will be like in 100 years. I imagine 100 years ago, people wondered the same thing. Could they have ever imagined how terrible so many of us would be? How shallow and vapid and vain and self-centered?

By its very nature, I suppose blogging is self-centered. At the same time, I do think there are varying degrees of this. I'd like to think that I share enough on this blog that it isn't really a golden idol dedicated to my own self-worship; that I'm not just presenting my life as something to be envied. HA!

I like to think of my blog as a place where I sort myself out, find my way, and you know, it's really worked in a lot of ways. I think the blogs I like best are the ones that sort of follow that same principle.

I know that I could get a larger following if I posted more "interesting" photos of myself or told every dirty little secret here.  But I don't want that sort of following.  You know, the 10% like you, 90% think you're heinous and just come because it's like driving by an accident.  I think I've had moments where I've almost taken that route, fortunately I think I've always pulled back in time. To each his own or so the cliche goes I guess.